im finally back again(: hmmm, where should ii start? hahas. suddenly ii have a feeling that the world seems to be going off soon? or am ii just imaginating? hahs. today we had our rehearsals for our upcoming concert in school. named Flower Power. (: well the ticket cost just $5. ii know ii did badly for zhang he. but... ii will do my best in it for the concert. sigh. things are coming up one after another. have been copying my notes at braddell library with stacy. hope ii can copy finish before prelims. 6 weeks!! my god! gonna start mugging as hard as ii can. ii want to go sec 5, to dance for SYF next year and get into a course ii wanted in poly. (of cos.. duh...-.-) and yes, ii mean it! and ii believe ii can do it. ii have high expectations. but ii keep disppointing myself time after another. ): ii promise to do well and ii will!! ii still not sure whether my family will be going to support me this august perfoemance? hahs. ii doubt so. D: some how ii felt more cheerful and happier when ii see my darhlings, and dance besties. :DD they brighten my day. with a BIG wide smile. meet meixia my prawn sister at woodlands to get my file. talk awhile at the control station. (: at that moment, every sorrows and sadness and even trouble is gone. ii dislike hypocrites. hahs. sorry but to say it out. now everyone give me a different yan guang. is like ii did something wrong. am ii a sinner? do you listen to both sides stories or both then elaborate? is it how people say it? ahas. sometimes ii feel that every friend ii knew have no basic trust. am ii right to say that? they dont know how people feel.. by stabbing people? ii know myself. people do make mistakes, so do ii. lifes isnt that easy. right? you need to go through ups and downs. for several time? it seems to be a exam for everyone. sometimes, ii feel like throwing my heart out, to say what im unhappy with. be it, school, dance, family and etc. the zodiac says that ii keep things in my heart. and doesnt want to say it out. and once, ii go to a temporary temple ii think, one of the god says that too. and its very accurate can? ii feel like staying alone at a corner. but ii cant. either im afraid of dark f not creepy crawlies. stupid huh? ii want to laugh my lungs out, but theres always no one there when ii want to do it. ii want to cry out loud.. but theres no shoulder for me to lean on. ii've got an attitude. yes ii am. every one has it? isnt it? im changing and yes, to be less sensitive and ask less. do you believe? everyone have their hard times isnt it? hahas. ii have a ambition to fulfill, ii have a dream, ii have a goals to achieve. can ii do it with all this things in my mind? ii believe ii can and ii want and ii will do it! dwelling with all this, no point right? so long as theres someone standing by me, ii will be fine, ii guess. you know who you are. theres still alot for me to continue. but ii need to finish up my coursework. so yupps, gonna wait for my next post(:

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What Gladys Means

You are deeply philosophical and thoughtful. You tend to analyze every aspect of your life. You are intuitive, brilliant, and quite introverted. You value your time alone. Often times, you are grumpy with other people. You don't appreciate them trying to interfere in your affairs. You are relaxed, chill, and very likely to go with the flow. You are light hearted and accepting. You don't get worked up easily. Well adjusted and incredibly happy, many people wonder what your secret to life is. You are usually the best at everything ... you strive for perfection. You are confident, authoritative, and aggressive. You have the classic "Type A" personality. You are balanced, orderly, and organized. You like your ducks in a row. You are powerful and competent, especially in the workplace. People can see you as stubborn and headstrong. You definitely have a dominant personality. You are a free spirit, and you resent anyone who tries to fence you in. You are unpredictable, adventurous, and always a little surprising. You may miss out by not settling down, but you're too busy having fun to care. You are the total package - suave, sexy, smart, and strong. You have the whole world under your spell, and you can influence almost everyone you know. You don't always resist your urges to crush the weak. Just remember, they don't have as much going for them as you do.