i still miss you like how i do i nthe past. now that you will stop replying to all my msges, i felt weird. without you by my side any longer, it will be lonely. walking home alone is always what i hate the most! this is what i wanna tell you on 21 april 1:24am
if you are clever enough, you should know my feelings are still there. but why arent you replying any of my msges? your avoiding from it right? arent you childish by doing this? this is what i wanna say on 22 april 2:07am
my phone went for service. and all those msges are gone. no more msges from you, i hate it! crying to ease the pain ive made, isnt that stupid?! you leave me alone when your busy, without any msges. ive thought that you wanted to end it, you dont want me anymore. ive made a decision, which is to leave you. i wanted to cry, but i stayed strong. thoughts pondering. care and concern is there. but i feel that we both somehow take each other for granted sometimes. no more goodnight msges, no more arguments. you make me grow stronger by the days and make me grow up. dont hate me, will you? its the second time, it ache for you. this is what i wanted to say on 22 april 2:20am
20:02
Monday, April 20, 2009
i'll miss those days(':
i dont want to carry on like this. i miss you yes i do. is my feeling still there? yes. but i feel that leave is the only thing i can do. its a torture. but still... being alone isn't that good. friends are there. but what if there is no more friends around you? i made a big decisions. its impact is quite big. after a few mins later. perhaps, im really not ready for everything around me. my mind is blank! really dont know what to do. feeling hopeless. ):
22:29
Monday, April 13, 2009
disappointment
today, celebrated weisiangs' bday at pizza hut(: well, hope you enjoy eh(: took photos and laugh quite alot. but im somehow not in the situation sometimes. wasnt feeling good. moody, upset. waited the bus alone. weisiang came and wanted to wait with me, but i asked him to go back. and also the guys to get home early. cos tml got school. hahs. well, was feeling emotional, yes, i stayed strong. i didnt shed any tear. everything seems so hopeless now. dont worry peeps, i wont do anything silly(':. well, as for yesterday, i thanks god for giving such wonderful sister i have now. they were there for me, they gave me ears, shoulders and tissue(: well, i must admit i almost cry yesterday and today. same reasons? hahs. im not feeling alone. but i felt that im being abandoned. )'; i dont know what to do now. seriously. i dont know. im gonna cry to sleep tonight. ):
things are piling up. homework is a torture. coursework is dying. im dying too. (inside but not the outside) stress level is getting higher, is pacing nearer and nearer):
what will happen if i do it? should i or should you? i dont want to continue in this way. i want to laugh, i want to smile. i dont want to frown, nor i want to cry.
today go school for dance practice(: laoshi was angry i suppose. sigh. i dont want to disappoint her): i will do my best. trust me. sweat alot. and i scolded them again for giving the sucky attitude. well, no pain no gain right? sigh.. ive changed three partners. -.- from samantha to angela and now lijing. sigh... suppose to go hk one but cos li yang and lijing cant make it then din go le. stacy was ill. GET WELL SOON! (: take care and drink lots of water!! then we(xinni, stacy and me) took mdm tans' car to central and we walked somehow, aimlessly. suppose we wanted to watch movie, but the no more time slot for it so we changed our mind to watch another show. but the tix is too ex today.. hahas. so changed our mind. went home after that msg bev, she's out with jacob. kat with her bf ask her if she were free. then i told her im walking alone aimlessly in tpy. then went home. and now using the comp:DD
alright.. received msg. but im not sure whether to go or not. sigh. its still as complicated as it is. well, thinking that much aint helping-.- i need some time to calm down and know what i should do next. well, this whole week, im quite moody. cos of some reasons. but my "sister" justin helped quite alot. he and weisiang keep make me laugh and smile(: thanks peeps:DD
alright, im hungry now. wanna go eat my favourite dish now:DD hahas. secret.... hehes :P
18:07
monday to thursday(:
helloo peeps(: back to blogging. today is good friday. hahas. went to school cos got dance practice:D yippy:DD i just love dancing so much. let me elaborate the whole week for you. ahas.
monday6/4/09 school was fine i suppose. malay dance got to go for SYF(: well, wish them lucks of cos:DD stayed back, for remedial and watch them dance. only three of them cos they are not that strong yet. so, i was kind of strict. and black face is all i can see. then, they went home, justin taught me maths outside mother tongue staff room. hahas. and the auntie came and ask us to go down. hahs. javier said something and its super funny. hahs. so after that went dinner i suppose? :X cant rmb. hahas. then weisiang and justin acc me wait for my bus. we missed alot of 56 cos we were talking. hahas. super funny.
tuesday7/4/09
happy 17th birthday my dear sweetheart:D all the best in everything alright:DD i love you. you know:X hahas. jiayou for syf kays:DD be it happy or sad i'll be there for you(:
after school, go library, used the comp. hahas. then four thirty went up to ms kaur home room. waiting for the teacher to call and go for oral examination. hahas. im still contemplating which teacher to choose from. hahas. and went we went into the hall, after times up. i dont know who to go to. and i saw mdm kavitha:DD so i went to her. after one of the 5n1 girl is me:X GAHHs, im afraid that i wont do well and i keep stoning and fidgeting.hahas. then when its my turn, it dont turn out as what ive expected.): i stuttered somehow? and mdm kavitha asked me is the passage alright. my god! hahas, i say manageable. and you know what make me stuttered? is that ive got no confidence-.- she wants to to get this fear out of me. and ask whether i read. i say sometimes. then she advice me to read more(: thanks! i will:DD then... went central with buddies:D then went home. that night, went tampines ikea:DD super big, and.. the elephant i wanted, sold out already. i suppose): sigh.. then went home. slept late again): im troubled!
wednesday8/4/09 mass cca, i cleared the cupboard, clear the make up box, washed everything that is dirty. super pek chek. and sifan and i keep all the costume in the box. and.. michelle helped too. thanks:DD they were dancing, we were busy cleaning.. and mdm tan came and say: " MALAY DANCE GOT GOLD FOR THEIR SYF." -.-" and one word flash through my mind, SHIT! sigh. what are we gonna do? time time time!! all of them so lazy-.- and after a few minutes P and VP came. and told us this thing again-.- and say all the best or whatever-.- GOD!! help!! sigh... i was pissed again cos all the dancers gave me attitude when mdm tan say we cant participate in sports carnival. GAHHS. talk to mdm tan damn long outside level 3 lift. sigh... alicia and michelle waited for me at the canteen. then michelle go find tayying and nick come fetch alicia. they waited the bus with me. ipod accompanied. then justin text me whether want to meet. i say anything. so when i saw xinni, i say:"xinni bao wo leh.): wo yao ku liao la! malay dance na GOLD leh! then i started crying.. -.- non-stop.. cos i super pek chek. they all, i mean, justin, hidayah, xinni, weisiang, keep ask me dont cry and blah blah blah. then when me and xinni were talking, the three of them disappear. they go mac take servette for me. hahas. thanks:DD i think thats justin idea? i suppose? hahas. and saw yazid he ask why i cry. then went meiyan, no space sit, went mac and wait for gary and javier to eat finish i suppose? hahas. javier say something to me which makes sense but i cry more badly-.- gary then say dont rub salt in. hahs. well, thanks for being there for me:DD you guys are wonderful friends! hidayah talk to me, and i agreed. weisiang followed behind and waited for the bus with me. and that idiot yazid wanted to scare me but too bad it failed! hahas. :P so lets see what happen next day..
thursday9/4/09 yesterday, laoshi was here. but something happened, she left. i was about to cry again but i want to stay strong, i want lasoshi wish to be fulfilled! i know she is disappointed. im sorry for everything that happen. i felt useless at one point of time. i flared up. i scolded every single one of them. and theres three person who seems to sit there purposely to see how we dance. hahs.-.- i scold everyone. i ask what they want. i pulled my left ligament i think. hahas. very pain. hahs. then now i cant walk properly. hahas. then we stand at some stall in central. and popiah kena the trick. hahas. then he gotta buy the wrist band. haahaas. hmmm, went fork and spoon. they eat dinner, i eat dessert. hahas. and that "sister" of mine, justin. hahas. smash the mountain into a flat land-.- GAHHS. and it looks like vomit. -.- and the colour like watermelon and i started teasing yazid. hahahas. and justin finished it cos im full. hahas. and before that i regret for hitting justin and yazid forehead because they hit mine back): evil!! hahas. but its funny too. hahs. then we go stairs to sit. then slack awhile. then went home. weisiang, yazid, samuel and justin waited for the bus with me again. hahas. full of craps. then went home. and slept late. talk to my fourth and second sis online. even though my fourth sis is at home. i cried due to some reasons.
17:17
Sunday, April 05, 2009
complicated)':
watching you at the corner, running away from your problems. seeking thru some alley trying to find out what are you doing. wanted to help you badly. this world is cruel. it is a reality world. its time to wake up from all those dreamy days, i should face my problems bravely. knowing someone is there to support me but; not with me. i'll be there and so are you. thanks(':
sudden feeling of something. ahas. complicated is the only word i could used. its been so long that i'd blogged. ahas. this few days im so so so emotional. SYF central judging is just pacing nearer and nearer. my injuries is not getting any better. in fact both legs are in pain now! badly. cried hopelessly. ahas. cant do much in yesterday's practice. was just crying outside the school hall. ahas. all i could do was to see them dance gracefully. and me just sitting down there doing nothing.
on friday, speech day. i could say it is a successful one. all these years, i prefer this year most. becos it looked more grand than before. after receiving my awards, went down to canteen to wait. was walking around, practicing with sifan in the washroom. that's hilarious. ahas. couldnt do some movement but i just did it. ahas. ater which, prepared for finale. was quite high. and xinni ask why suddenly so high. i sat i dont know. hahas. saw ms haymini and ms venni, hugged them. ooh and ms yeo. went back to packed dance stuff and remove make up. eat dinner at kfc with a bunch of good friends. hahas. full of craps. hahas. went home. thanks pig for acc me to wait for my bus. :DD around my area, caught fire. super smoky. hahas. alright im very happy on fri. for some reasons.
for sat, its kind of emotional. ahas. well, i just dont know what im thinking. im really very confused. vexed! and all i know is complicated! i dont know, i dont know i dont know! i think im also running away from it now. ahas. someone pls, tell me what i should do. sigh.
imissyoubadly...
18:39
spring
profile!
Tagboard
tagboard!
autumn
link you friends:D
winter
music player
Sunday, April 26, 2009
i still miss you like how i do i nthe past. now that you will stop replying to all my msges, i felt weird. without you by my side any longer, it will be lonely. walking home alone is always what i hate the most! this is what i wanna tell you on 21 april 1:24am
if you are clever enough, you should know my feelings are still there. but why arent you replying any of my msges? your avoiding from it right? arent you childish by doing this? this is what i wanna say on 22 april 2:07am
my phone went for service. and all those msges are gone. no more msges from you, i hate it! crying to ease the pain ive made, isnt that stupid?! you leave me alone when your busy, without any msges. ive thought that you wanted to end it, you dont want me anymore. ive made a decision, which is to leave you. i wanted to cry, but i stayed strong. thoughts pondering. care and concern is there. but i feel that we both somehow take each other for granted sometimes. no more goodnight msges, no more arguments. you make me grow stronger by the days and make me grow up. dont hate me, will you? its the second time, it ache for you. this is what i wanted to say on 22 april 2:20am
20:02
Monday, April 20, 2009
i dont want to carry on like this. i miss you yes i do. is my feeling still there? yes. but i feel that leave is the only thing i can do. its a torture. but still... being alone isn't that good. friends are there. but what if there is no more friends around you? i made a big decisions. its impact is quite big. after a few mins later. perhaps, im really not ready for everything around me. my mind is blank! really dont know what to do. feeling hopeless. ):
22:29
Monday, April 13, 2009
today, celebrated weisiangs' bday at pizza hut(: well, hope you enjoy eh(: took photos and laugh quite alot. but im somehow not in the situation sometimes. wasnt feeling good. moody, upset. waited the bus alone. weisiang came and wanted to wait with me, but i asked him to go back. and also the guys to get home early. cos tml got school. hahs. well, was feeling emotional, yes, i stayed strong. i didnt shed any tear. everything seems so hopeless now. dont worry peeps, i wont do anything silly(':. well, as for yesterday, i thanks god for giving such wonderful sister i have now. they were there for me, they gave me ears, shoulders and tissue(: well, i must admit i almost cry yesterday and today. same reasons? hahs. im not feeling alone. but i felt that im being abandoned. )'; i dont know what to do now. seriously. i dont know. im gonna cry to sleep tonight. ):
things are piling up. homework is a torture. coursework is dying. im dying too. (inside but not the outside) stress level is getting higher, is pacing nearer and nearer):
what will happen if i do it? should i or should you? i dont want to continue in this way. i want to laugh, i want to smile. i dont want to frown, nor i want to cry.
today go school for dance practice(: laoshi was angry i suppose. sigh. i dont want to disappoint her): i will do my best. trust me. sweat alot. and i scolded them again for giving the sucky attitude. well, no pain no gain right? sigh.. ive changed three partners. -.- from samantha to angela and now lijing. sigh... suppose to go hk one but cos li yang and lijing cant make it then din go le. stacy was ill. GET WELL SOON! (: take care and drink lots of water!! then we(xinni, stacy and me) took mdm tans' car to central and we walked somehow, aimlessly. suppose we wanted to watch movie, but the no more time slot for it so we changed our mind to watch another show. but the tix is too ex today.. hahas. so changed our mind. went home after that msg bev, she's out with jacob. kat with her bf ask her if she were free. then i told her im walking alone aimlessly in tpy. then went home. and now using the comp:DD
alright.. received msg. but im not sure whether to go or not. sigh. its still as complicated as it is. well, thinking that much aint helping-.- i need some time to calm down and know what i should do next. well, this whole week, im quite moody. cos of some reasons. but my "sister" justin helped quite alot. he and weisiang keep make me laugh and smile(: thanks peeps:DD
alright, im hungry now. wanna go eat my favourite dish now:DD hahas. secret.... hehes :P
18:07
helloo peeps(: back to blogging. today is good friday. hahas. went to school cos got dance practice:D yippy:DD i just love dancing so much. let me elaborate the whole week for you. ahas.
monday6/4/09 school was fine i suppose. malay dance got to go for SYF(: well, wish them lucks of cos:DD stayed back, for remedial and watch them dance. only three of them cos they are not that strong yet. so, i was kind of strict. and black face is all i can see. then, they went home, justin taught me maths outside mother tongue staff room. hahas. and the auntie came and ask us to go down. hahs. javier said something and its super funny. hahs. so after that went dinner i suppose? :X cant rmb. hahas. then weisiang and justin acc me wait for my bus. we missed alot of 56 cos we were talking. hahas. super funny.
tuesday7/4/09
happy 17th birthday my dear sweetheart:D all the best in everything alright:DD i love you. you know:X hahas. jiayou for syf kays:DD be it happy or sad i'll be there for you(:
after school, go library, used the comp. hahas. then four thirty went up to ms kaur home room. waiting for the teacher to call and go for oral examination. hahas. im still contemplating which teacher to choose from. hahas. and went we went into the hall, after times up. i dont know who to go to. and i saw mdm kavitha:DD so i went to her. after one of the 5n1 girl is me:X GAHHs, im afraid that i wont do well and i keep stoning and fidgeting.hahas. then when its my turn, it dont turn out as what ive expected.): i stuttered somehow? and mdm kavitha asked me is the passage alright. my god! hahas, i say manageable. and you know what make me stuttered? is that ive got no confidence-.- she wants to to get this fear out of me. and ask whether i read. i say sometimes. then she advice me to read more(: thanks! i will:DD then... went central with buddies:D then went home. that night, went tampines ikea:DD super big, and.. the elephant i wanted, sold out already. i suppose): sigh.. then went home. slept late again): im troubled!
wednesday8/4/09 mass cca, i cleared the cupboard, clear the make up box, washed everything that is dirty. super pek chek. and sifan and i keep all the costume in the box. and.. michelle helped too. thanks:DD they were dancing, we were busy cleaning.. and mdm tan came and say: " MALAY DANCE GOT GOLD FOR THEIR SYF." -.-" and one word flash through my mind, SHIT! sigh. what are we gonna do? time time time!! all of them so lazy-.- and after a few minutes P and VP came. and told us this thing again-.- and say all the best or whatever-.- GOD!! help!! sigh... i was pissed again cos all the dancers gave me attitude when mdm tan say we cant participate in sports carnival. GAHHS. talk to mdm tan damn long outside level 3 lift. sigh... alicia and michelle waited for me at the canteen. then michelle go find tayying and nick come fetch alicia. they waited the bus with me. ipod accompanied. then justin text me whether want to meet. i say anything. so when i saw xinni, i say:"xinni bao wo leh.): wo yao ku liao la! malay dance na GOLD leh! then i started crying.. -.- non-stop.. cos i super pek chek. they all, i mean, justin, hidayah, xinni, weisiang, keep ask me dont cry and blah blah blah. then when me and xinni were talking, the three of them disappear. they go mac take servette for me. hahas. thanks:DD i think thats justin idea? i suppose? hahas. and saw yazid he ask why i cry. then went meiyan, no space sit, went mac and wait for gary and javier to eat finish i suppose? hahas. javier say something to me which makes sense but i cry more badly-.- gary then say dont rub salt in. hahs. well, thanks for being there for me:DD you guys are wonderful friends! hidayah talk to me, and i agreed. weisiang followed behind and waited for the bus with me. and that idiot yazid wanted to scare me but too bad it failed! hahas. :P so lets see what happen next day..
thursday9/4/09 yesterday, laoshi was here. but something happened, she left. i was about to cry again but i want to stay strong, i want lasoshi wish to be fulfilled! i know she is disappointed. im sorry for everything that happen. i felt useless at one point of time. i flared up. i scolded every single one of them. and theres three person who seems to sit there purposely to see how we dance. hahs.-.- i scold everyone. i ask what they want. i pulled my left ligament i think. hahas. very pain. hahs. then now i cant walk properly. hahas. then we stand at some stall in central. and popiah kena the trick. hahas. then he gotta buy the wrist band. haahaas. hmmm, went fork and spoon. they eat dinner, i eat dessert. hahas. and that "sister" of mine, justin. hahas. smash the mountain into a flat land-.- GAHHS. and it looks like vomit. -.- and the colour like watermelon and i started teasing yazid. hahahas. and justin finished it cos im full. hahas. and before that i regret for hitting justin and yazid forehead because they hit mine back): evil!! hahas. but its funny too. hahs. then we go stairs to sit. then slack awhile. then went home. weisiang, yazid, samuel and justin waited for the bus with me again. hahas. full of craps. then went home. and slept late. talk to my fourth and second sis online. even though my fourth sis is at home. i cried due to some reasons.
17:17
Sunday, April 05, 2009
watching you at the corner, running away from your problems. seeking thru some alley trying to find out what are you doing. wanted to help you badly. this world is cruel. it is a reality world. its time to wake up from all those dreamy days, i should face my problems bravely. knowing someone is there to support me but; not with me. i'll be there and so are you. thanks(':
sudden feeling of something. ahas. complicated is the only word i could used. its been so long that i'd blogged. ahas. this few days im so so so emotional. SYF central judging is just pacing nearer and nearer. my injuries is not getting any better. in fact both legs are in pain now! badly. cried hopelessly. ahas. cant do much in yesterday's practice. was just crying outside the school hall. ahas. all i could do was to see them dance gracefully. and me just sitting down there doing nothing.
on friday, speech day. i could say it is a successful one. all these years, i prefer this year most. becos it looked more grand than before. after receiving my awards, went down to canteen to wait. was walking around, practicing with sifan in the washroom. that's hilarious. ahas. couldnt do some movement but i just did it. ahas. ater which, prepared for finale. was quite high. and xinni ask why suddenly so high. i sat i dont know. hahas. saw ms haymini and ms venni, hugged them. ooh and ms yeo. went back to packed dance stuff and remove make up. eat dinner at kfc with a bunch of good friends. hahas. full of craps. hahas. went home. thanks pig for acc me to wait for my bus. :DD around my area, caught fire. super smoky. hahas. alright im very happy on fri. for some reasons.
for sat, its kind of emotional. ahas. well, i just dont know what im thinking. im really very confused. vexed! and all i know is complicated! i dont know, i dont know i dont know! i think im also running away from it now. ahas. someone pls, tell me what i should do. sigh.
imissyoubadly...
18:39
♥NAVIGATE♥
terpsichorean.; gladys,
16 december:D
im a saggitarus(:
i love my beloved; sweeties & my darhlings:DD
chocolates is my best friend, and Elephants is my husband! :D @Facebook
Book: Mummy's Little Girl,Wednesday Letter Music: Secret- One Republic Obsession: Elephants and more elphants. Craving: Ice Cream Waffle, Ben & Jerry Ice Cream Upcoming Event : Dancing In Unity Performance -> 10'Sep'2010
: GCE O Level ->25'Oct'2010
: Genting Trip ->22'Nov'2010-26'Nov'2010
: Impression.Expression Dance Night 9 -> 3,4'Dec'2010
