its been ages since i came to post eh? hahas. well, today aint my day. was not in a good mood. dont know why? being very emotional:/ thinking too much again and again. everything stopped and change.

i think i shouldnt even fall for you,
if it gets deeper, i would be dead.
just let time take it all back,
and, let nature takes its cause.

few days back, sokyee was asking if i were meeting them for the pri sch gathering. hahas, didnt know until she told me(: thanks babe. text yk, and was talking about it. how i wish i could see them asap again:DDD miss the old days back in hws): sigh. but.. everything is not confirmed yet.

i seems to be down during this period of time. i will smile when its neccessary. so if im not smiling, dont get the wrong idea of me. thanks. and well, as what ive mention in my another blog, dont be surprised or whatever if you see me cry.

just some sudden thoughts told me that i shouldnt hang around with you guys again, i seems to be avoiding something. but what else could i do? i seriously dont know what to do. and i dont know what exactly im thinking of. ive been stoning again:/ why? and i felt that whenever i need someone to be there to talk to, the person refuse to listen to me:/ well, perhaps im thinking too much.

gladys, wake up from all those nonsense!
sigh. i seriously want to leave the past, forget about everything.
get you out of my mind. i dont want it to be corrupted.
it seems to be thinking too much all this while.
but...
there is a phobia there now. i dont want it either.
it just irritates me-.-
sigh...













i know im aint perfect,
no one in this world is perfect.
but why people just cant accept it but talk about it?
why must all this things exist?:/

ive been asking myself the same question. again and again. i dont know what to do now. in dilema. to go or not to go. ive never expected for this to be happening. but it just happen in this way. ahas. how nice it is now? i dont get it. what am i to you? hahs! you this freaking hell, just spoil my mood.

i vow not to stone cos of you anymore. but it happen again today. but why? im questioning myself again and again. but it just seems hopeless. i should have not know you in the first place. ahas.

i seriously dont want to see myself in this state anymore. i want to let go, stop thinking of you. but hope everything will just go with my thinking and my instincts and intuition.

rants, rants, rants... whining begin again...

hello earthlings(: i have been mia-ing from my blog eh? hahas. well, im just plain lazy to update it. well, many things happened though. alright lets just start with yesterday? hahas. teachers from school called and asked me to go to a private clinic near my house. so i did as i was told. cos i was having sore throat and flu. and it sucks hell loads! and so, i went there and suppose to go for dance rehearsal afterwhich but i was not allowed to go, as i was given a five days MC:/ i called alot of people. i cried when im on the phone though): i seriously want to perform! rahhs! this sucks totally. and mdm tan told me to go back and ask the doctor, if its just a normal flu, then just give me one day mc. but the doctor say looking at the circumstances now, its hard to say, if i got the h1n1 virus. gahhs! so the clinic nurse told me to go to ttsh to have a blood test:/ GOD!! i hate the needles and its ultra painful! i hate it!

so i walked home, changed and took off my contacts and headed to ttsh. luckily justin and yifu accompanied me. cos no one were free to do so:/ argh!! i hate it la! then when i reached there, they keep doing silly things to make me smile and laugh and whatsoever. im glad though. i was damn afraid. wasted precious time at the wrong clinic-.- so i went to A&E. give them the info they needed and waited for the transport to come cos its raining. so wait lor.. then we went to cdc, there is a total of 5 patients in the van:/ GAHHS. while getting registered, i keep receiving calls. mdm au told me that our whole class under LOA cos jolyn case is confirmed. gahhs!! so that means we all cant perform and goes to school:/

im glad that i dont need the swab test, cos the doctor say that my case is a normal flu. and my throat is abit red eh. i got infection:/ GAHHS. again? sigh. then i went to square two to find them. and these two jokers continue their lameness. ahas. then they say they bought me donuts, im touched but too bad, i dont want to eat. hahas. cos they helped zn they all buy one. so i dont want to eat and they keep asking me to bite. :/ grrrr.

i was super tired when we three are inside the bus 147. then when they reached, i took 147 back. cos i was suppose to go home and qurantined myself. sigh. fyi, i was having headache when im on he bus, but i just kept quiet. ahahas, well now i will literally rot at home!

i want jolyn to recover soon! get well soon alright. dont worry about me. look after yourself alright? love ya.

ooh, i must thank firman, justin, yifu, alicia, stacy, hilary and jacqueline.:DDD thanks for the care and concern you guys asked:DDD i'll be fine.