i miss you):

todays lesson still the same. no diff. but something i didnt expect it to happen, it happened. ):
today, i purposely left my house late. cos i wanted to be late for school. but how nice, when i reach tpy, the 238 lane is quite long, i see students from ftp. GAHHS. no chance for me to be late:/ alright. can you imagine? i can actually stone in the bus ride to school which is only 4 stops away? :/ ahas.

thinking of it again. okay. not only in 238, when im my way, im already thinking about it already:/ ahas. reached school, saw my girlfriends sitting at the usual place, din walk up and find them i walk straight to stall 8. walking listlessly or rather i stone while i walk? ahas. pro huh? then bought my 'breakfast' then walk to p.s. sian. then i walk to councillor there. okay its infront of the rock wall-.- GAHHS, okay, stop thinking!

then i didnt sit at the place where sec 5 should be. sat beside danfeng. then after flagraising, justin came. he sit beside me. and i was facing his direction, then when he say very weird then i turn away and started stoning. sigh. then those science teacher like keep haunting us for the ten bucks, and how nice(: i was left with a few dollars to survive. i didnt ask from dad-.- i walk to mdm chang homeroom level. but classroom being used up-.- sec 1 GAHHS. then i was eating my food and mdm k saw and ask. ahas. well, i will get gastric what?-.- nevermind, didnt told her also, so i keep it. and continue when she left:X went into classroom, stone and communicate with alicia using foolscape. hahs. then i told her 930 wake me up so i nap awhile.

i did do my work, before i left for recess. i thought i'll be fine today cos alicia gave me kinder bueno my 'antidote' and sweet. thanks baby, but sorry it sint helping me): so we went off to canteen, was deciding what to eat. saw angela and ken. so, bought some small pieces of food. bought drinks with alicia and went back to eat. ahas. then was listening to justin ipod, cos my going low batt and he offered that i can listen to it. how nice my 'sister' is. ahas. then listen listen, and i swear i din focus on what its singing as in the lyrics, then i was playing with my food, and i tear all of a sudden, i know why. it hurts inside. really. and alicia ask whether i wanna go toilet, i say no, ken ask what happen, i smiled back. i went to the toilet in the end, both my sweeties came along. dont worry. so i went back tried to continue with my food. was feeling damn awful. shu shu saw me. cos he was talking to eileen them. so ya, he know what happen. he came by and wanted to make me laugh but fail.

sigh.. din finish my food. walk to mdm c classroom again. i stopped at level 3 and went into the toilet with alicia. i teared badly. not that extreme. i asked her alot of qns. ): then she answered me back. thanks baby. i tried to cool down, and make it not so obvious that i cry cos justin and javier cannot know. cos... nevermind. then, i tried to keep myself busy with those WS. so ya. justin see what im listening and he find one song for me to hear. i'll post the lyrics later. thanks sister i know you trying to make me be like what i am in the past. after i ask mdm c my qns i went my place, listen to the song while stoning. wanted to cry but i hold back the tears.

GLADYS NG!! you are so hopeless! useless! why didnt you do as what you promise?!! why?!!
you've gotta be strong! stop shedding tears!! Grrr...

sigh, alright readers, i shall drown myself to sleep soon. and yupps, shall do jibengong with my girls tml. i want muscles aches.. i want those pain! i will endure! goodnight peeps.