i've got a sudden feeling of losing the warmth i used to got. perhaps, im thinking too much again. im also contemplating on whether to close that blog and also to go back to huiguan anot. should i give up on my passion because i want to avoid you? or rather say that i want to have more time with my family?

dance is my passion. ever since i got to know this special and unique feeling in dance, i fall in love with it, i thought i couldnt leave without it. huay kuan became my second home. i often feel the warmth from edmund bro, ruiling, zina, jocelene, eli, shihui. these feel people were the one that pull me through. they listen to what ive say. ive got their never ending encouragement, their ears were always there, opened to listen to what im saying.

now, everything have changed. im also another changed person. i dont know what had happened either. thinking too much is one thing i told others not to be doing. but now im always doing it.

after many things that had happened, ive learnt alot of things. ive learnt not to take things so hard, say what i should really say, or rather speak out. not to take things for granted, not to see things so seriously. being friendly, ignore those uncivilised people. and more.

families and my beloved friends --> my cliques, is the most important people in my life now. i dont see any need for me to get a boyfriend. or rather im having phobia in getting into another relationship. i just cant seem to find the right one. hurt by one after another. i mean those i like. i cant find any security in the one i fall for. perhaps the time just not right.

O levels is coming, im unprepared. :/ im mugging now. until Os ends. i want to get into the poly i want and pursue my dreams. i know i can:DDD after ive start work. i think i'll pay everything for myself. might not get any pocket money from parents. i must learnt to be independent. theres still alot of things in life that ive not known.

my mind is full of qns, doubting of everything. pondering if i should ask or not. by how and what should i do?.. life is never easy. theres bound to be ups and downs. this is a challenge that God gave us. i'll learnt to cherish every little thing now...